A Message To You, Beautiful Mom


Mother's Day

I want to wish a Happy Mother’s Day to all you beautiful, strong women who are raising beautiful, strong, independent kids. And of course, Happy Mother’s Day to all of our own mothers, they did a pretty fantastic job raising us and I respect them more and more with each passing day. They have earned the right to laugh at us while we navigate parenthood. No?  Your moms don’t laugh at you, just mine? She keeps telling me she’s laughing with me. I don’t know. Just kidding, love you mom.

I have included an essay below by Anna Quindlen that a girlfriend sent me in May 2011. I kept it and have read it a few times since then. When I first got it I had a 3 year old and a 2 year old and was pregnant with my third child, I was in the weeds of parenthood and I’ll be honest this didn’t resonate that well with me. I feel like every time I read it though, I relate to it more and more and find a new message that strikes me.

If there is one message I hope all you amazing moms take from this, it is the very last two lines.

“I was bound and determined to learn from the experts. It just took me a while to figure out who the experts were.”

You are the expert and it is your day to Shine. So Shine On Beautiful Mom, your kids think you are the best thing on the planet.

Enjoy Your Day.

Shine on Mom

An essay by Anna Quindlen

All my babies are gone now. I say this not in sorrow but in disbelief. I take great satisfaction in what I have today: three almost-adults, two taller than I am, one closing in fast. Three people who read the same books I do and have learned not to be afraid of disagreeing with me in their opinion of them, who sometimes tell vulgar jokes that make me laugh until I choke and cry, who need razor blades and shower gel and privacy, who want to keep their doors closed more than I like. Who, miraculously, go to the bathroom, zip up their jackets and move food from plate to mouth all by themselves. Like the trick soap I bought for the bathroom with a rubber ducky at its center, the baby is buried deep within each, barely discernible except through the unreliable haze of the past.

Everything in all the books I once poured over is finished for me now. Penelope Leach., T. Berry Brazelton., Dr. Spock. The ones on sibling rivalry and sleeping through the night and early-childhood education, have all grown obsolete. Along with Goodnight Moon and Where the Wild Things Are, they are battered, spotted, well used. But I suspect that if you flipped the pages dust would rise like memories. What those books taught me, finally, and what the women on the playground taught me, and the well-meaning relations –what they taught me, was that they couldn’t really teach me very much at all.

Raising children is presented at first as a true-false test, then becomes multiple choice, until finally, far along, you realize that it is an endless essay. No one knows anything. One child responds well to positive reinforcement, another can be managed only with a stern voice and a timeout. One child is toilet trained at 3, his sibling at 2.

When my first child was born, parents were told to put baby to bed on his belly so that he would not choke on his own spit-up. By the time my last arrived, babies were put down on their backs because of research on sudden infant death syndrome. To a new parent this ever-shifting certainty is terrifying, and then soothing. Eventually you must learn to trust yourself. Eventually the research will follow. I remember 15 years ago poring over one of Dr. Brazelton’s wonderful books on child development, in which he describes three different sorts of infants: average, quiet, and active. I was looking for a sub-quiet codicil for an 18-month old who did not walk. Was there some thing wrong with his fat little legs? Was there something wrong with his tiny little mind? Was he developmentally delayed, physically challenged? Was I insane? Last year he went to China . Next year he goes to college. He can talk just fine. He can walk, too.

Every part of raising children is humbling, too. Believe me, mistakes were made. They have all been enshrined in the, ‘Remember-When- Mom-Did Hall of Fame.’ The outbursts, the temper tantrums, the bad language, mine, not theirs. The times the baby fell off the bed. The times I arrived late for preschool pick up. The nightmare sleepover. The horrible summer camp. The day when the youngest came barreling out of the classroom with a 98 on her geography test, and I responded, ‘What did you get wrong?’. (She insisted I include that.) The time I ordered food at the McDonald’s drive-through speaker and then drove away without picking it up from the window. (They all insisted I include that.) I did not allow them to watch the Simpsons for the first two seasons. What was I thinking?

But the biggest mistake I made is the one that most of us make while doing this. I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture of the three of them, sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages 6, 4 and 1. And I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get onto the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less.

Even today I’m not sure what worked and what didn’t, what was me and what was simply life. When they were very small, I suppose I thought someday they would become who they were because of what I’d done. Now I suspect they simply grew into their true selves because they demanded in a thousand ways that I back off and let them be. The books said to be relaxed and I was often tense, matter-of-fact and I was sometimes over the top. And look how it all turned out. I wound up with the three people I like best in the world, who have done more than anyone to excavate my essential humanity. That’s what the books never told me. I was bound and determined to learn from the experts. It just took me a while to figure out who the experts were.


What is one thing you would tell a mom, either your own mom or your mom friends?




  1. says

    Beautiful essay! Love the part that said, “the baby is buried deep within each, barely discernible except through the unreliable haze of the past.” My children will always be my babies no matter how old they get (or how old I get). So happy mine are still at home with me. One day they will grow up and move on into their own lives. I hope I cherish the moments while I have them!

    • says

      Hi Chanda, that is a great quote too. And I love your comment about hoping you cherish the moments. I hope I do as well, I definitely try but its not always easy when I am in the moment. Happy Mother’s Day! Sarah

  2. Leahann says

    Wow. Does this ever resonate!?!
    Thank you for sharing this and today, and moving forward I am going to aim to spend more time in the present. For real. :)

    • says

      We all try our best but it isn’t always the easiest. I think that is why I have kept this essay for so many years, I really want to be in the moment but I definitely need the reminders :) Happy Mother’s Day Leahann, you’re an awesome mom.

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